Anger and Maturity?
So, it turns out I am a bit useless at updating this thing regularly - but since the trillions of you reading this have been so encouraging, I will press on! ;-)
Anyway, recently I have been thinking about 2 things in depth:
1) Pornography/lust (briefly for the record, I am not keen on it, if that isn't obvious to you)
2) Handling emotions that stem from hurts, specifically anger.
I am still thinking through the porn/lust stuff, so I will start with the harder topic!
Recently an organisation I belong to went through a "split". The process involved was long and painful and many meetings were had in order to reach unity in beliefs. Wrongs were done. Hurts were raw. And offence was taken. Some people were boxed as too emotional and selfish, and some were boxed as too intellectual and unfeeling. In the end the differences in thinking were too great for some and they decided they would leave the organisation. (I feel I cannot give more detail than this in a blog).
I have been surprised at the level of emotion I have felt as I have watched this division take hold. I have been surprised at the anger I have felt. I have been surprised how quickly my brain has sought to demonize and blame certain people - even if my tongue has kept quiet.
Today we farewelled members of the organisation who have chosen to move on. Today I heared words of grace and love from the mouths of the leadership. And I heard demonstrations of hostility from some of us "left behind". And the pain of loss, rejection and anger was palpable.
One precious friend I spoke to said Hubby and I behaved with maturity. I don't think I mentioned to her the childish gut reactions that were going on inside. But today a tantrum was avoided. Is that "maturity"? I don't know.
This post is sincere and is in no way intended to hurt or attack anybody.
Anyway, recently I have been thinking about 2 things in depth:
1) Pornography/lust (briefly for the record, I am not keen on it, if that isn't obvious to you)
2) Handling emotions that stem from hurts, specifically anger.
I am still thinking through the porn/lust stuff, so I will start with the harder topic!
Recently an organisation I belong to went through a "split". The process involved was long and painful and many meetings were had in order to reach unity in beliefs. Wrongs were done. Hurts were raw. And offence was taken. Some people were boxed as too emotional and selfish, and some were boxed as too intellectual and unfeeling. In the end the differences in thinking were too great for some and they decided they would leave the organisation. (I feel I cannot give more detail than this in a blog).
I have been surprised at the level of emotion I have felt as I have watched this division take hold. I have been surprised at the anger I have felt. I have been surprised how quickly my brain has sought to demonize and blame certain people - even if my tongue has kept quiet.
Today we farewelled members of the organisation who have chosen to move on. Today I heared words of grace and love from the mouths of the leadership. And I heard demonstrations of hostility from some of us "left behind". And the pain of loss, rejection and anger was palpable.
One precious friend I spoke to said Hubby and I behaved with maturity. I don't think I mentioned to her the childish gut reactions that were going on inside. But today a tantrum was avoided. Is that "maturity"? I don't know.
This post is sincere and is in no way intended to hurt or attack anybody.
Thanks for the post lovey. I reckon you've been really mature, particularly since you didn't chuck a tantrum! What can ya say? It was a hard day for many involved. Love ya!
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